Annisa FR

There is something with rain that brings every memory back to its owner, rain has the power of nostalgic. The memory of you playing with a friend under the rain or the one of you staying in a cafѐ that played your current favorite slow song at the moment or the one of you confessed to someone you love. Even the memory aside from the touch of rain itself, could be brought back with rain.

There is something contained in old songs aside from lyrics and melody, there is a memory of the listeners. The song absorbs memory from your ears, because ears are the closest to the brain, maybe that’s why.

There is something about you that makes me remember the rain because you smell like a fresh damp soil after raining and there’s something about rain that reminds me of you. The sound of the rain when the waterdroplets hit the ground reminds me of how noisy you were at the time we together, you sound like rain and rain smell like you. If there isn’t tea and sugar, rain and you would be the best couple on earth.

I never really thought about how rain sounds nor how it brings back memories before, but you introduce me to it. You introduced to me a part of you, but I never introduce you to my heartbeat, which is also a part of me.

I don’t know how heartbeat becomes the part of me since the first place, I barely know it, I sometimes don’t even notice it before. But suddenly you makes me learn how to know my heartbeat by leaving.

Once you left, heartbeat starts speaking to me, it tells me how much I miss you, how much I need you and how much a fool I am to let you go. The rain should have gone with you, but without me noticing, the rain has became a part of me too. Heartbeat speaks to me and the rain feels me.

They force me to tell you the truth, the very truth I just found out once you left.

That...

The rain has became a part of me because it’s yours and the heartbeat speaks and tells about the true feeling like mouth has never done before.

I miss you.

These are some parts of my memory about middle school.

They are all lovely and immortal.

So, there they are....

My picture with Widya, Virda and Malika right after (or before... not sure lol) our drama assignment started,

my picture with Widya and Virda in front of our seventh grade class when we were still seventh graders,

Another picture of me with Widya and Virda (took a lot and have so much memories about them! *hug*) in Bogor for our field trip in eight grade (I could remember clearly I cried over stupid thing there),

...Another picture of me with Widya and Virda, taken at photobooth in a certain Mall in our town, it was in eight grade if I'm not mistaken,

Picture of me, Firda, Nadia and Delfiera wearing or riding? lol something like sandals, before breakfasting at school, it was in eight grade maybe?

Lika, Fira, Vanny, Widya, Me and Neema >< kyaaa we looked so awful after school ><

Me alone, in Gibran's house when our group had a cooking assignment and I was the one who cook /proud/ it was in Eight grade,

Fira, Vanny and Me... not sure when, but it was in KFC lmao all time favorite hang out place >< Was it when Vanny's birthday?

Widya and Me, lol it's just silly we took picture from the up ><

Devia and Me, holding sapphire blue ballons in Diva's room, at seventh grade? When we were escaping from a school event ><

Kintan and Me, after drama assignment over. We still looked cute and adorable and ugh ;3

With Virda, Widya and Ramdha, on our first field trip to Bogor Botanical Garden... We used to be a severe camera whore lmao

Me, alone, Bogor again? My class' refreshing event back in seventh grade,

With Malika, Kintan, Virda and Widya... Oh how I miss to sit there all day ;( It was in our class, we used to be placed there for two years straight and when we were just getting used with the room... they changed our class T T I miss hanging there, telling stories, sometimes take pictures, sometimes work on our supposed-to-be-done-at-home-homework T T

Math class, ninth grade, when our math teacher purposefully locked us inside so we would be late for the next lesson. The teacher's really playful n_n been our homeroom teacher for two years straight since eight grade <3 font="">

It was in the class right in the corner of our school, that time we were supposed to stay in social class but the teacher didn't come and we got bored so... we took pictures a la a la model lmao

Ninth grade, yearbook photoshoot T T oh how I miss that moment so much. It was lunch time and after we'd eaten our meals, a girl in my class brought her guitar and told us to sing together before we really separated. It was first strike, we just whined at her. Second strike was when we were singing Katy Perry's The One That Got Away, the girl that played guitar suddenly said "I'm gonna mis our moment together, singing like this." and that was it. Someone cried. It was actually girls talk so no boys :p It was really touching I want to do that again ;'(

Ninth grade, just last month? Our farewell party (which didn't feel like 'farewell' because the next day we should meet again to plan our booth for our school's art festival) at Bogor (I really don't know why I never travel further with friends)

Seventh grade's Kartini Day, kkk~ that was really fun, I've only experienced one Kartini Day at middle school wearing kebaya because the other two years spent by wearing uniform ;'( So that's memorable <3 font="">

Eight grade's class refreshing event at a Zoo in Bogor (now that I keep mentioning it, I realize how much I've spent my refreshing times in Bogor -_-) Widya Prita Kintan Bepe Gina <3 font="">

With Widya, Bepe and Kintan. Taken by Kintan's (it was) brand new iPad >< she had been whining about it for a month and finally her father bought it for her, she took it to school and BAM! our camera-whoring victim ><

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Well, it was taken in front of our old class ;'(

and that one was taken in front of our new class ;'3

was taken at the major breakfasting event at school, eight grade maybe.

Taken at Lika's birthday, we caked her face and.... I fell >< that was the most memorable fall I've experienced ;') I fell like I wanted to fly T T

That... Umh... How do I explain that one? So, Widya and I were offered lunch by Virda the goddess of warm-heart, she said it was her treat so Widya and I went with her to the nearest restaurant from school. And in short, we went crazy and went under the table... and stupidly took a freaking picture that could only last forever T T

My seventh grade's drama team, Geng Daud ;;) 21st January 2011, a major drama performance.

Another geng daud picture, I just love them so much <3 font="">

It's... I don't know... We were just breakfasting together but it was so much fun! ^^

Hai semuanya, hihi... Akhirnya nulis lagi setelah sekiAAAAAAAn lama, hahahaha ><

Actually, I've had intention to write since what? gazzilion years ago? lol tapi aku engga bisa karena sepertinya engga menarik juga hari hari pertama ku di kelas 9 ini karena kerjaannya belajar, belajar, belajar dan fangirling kkkk~ Walaupun sejujurnya porsi fangirling sama porsi belajarnya banyakan porsi fangirlnya >< wah jadi malu deh! #APASIH #NGEK #HAHAHAHA

Jadi, sebetulnya kalian sudah tau kan, aku ngga bakal disini kalau ngga punya cerita atau kalau kegalauanku belum mencapai tingkat paling tinggi/maksimal. HEHEHEHE, jadi memang iya ini cuma another galau nite for me, karena ya Tuhan... Demi apapun, aku ciyusan galau ini! HAHAHAHA

Kenapa kamu?

Aku kenapa? Duh, bahkan aku ngga ngerti sama perasaan ku sendiri! (Drama biar banyak yang baca ><)
Tapi aku jujur engga tahu, aku engga ngerti apa sebetulnya yang mesti aku galauin dari hal yang sudah SEHARUSNYA dan hal yang memang dari awal SUDAH BEGITU... Makanya aku pun heran, kapan aku bisa berhenti jadi remaja labil begini ;A;

Jadi begini ceritanya: PEOPLE MOVED ON BUT I CAN'T, PEOPLE CHANGED BUT I DON'T.

Singkat bukan? Kalau engga salah aku pernah bilang kalau 'People changes, Feeling changes' di salah satu blog spot tapi... kenapa tiba-tiba pemikiran tersebut bikin aku insekiyur sendiri? Bagus kalau pemikiran itu bisa bikin aku jadi insinyur, ini bikin aku insekyur! #APAAN

Aku bukan orang yang terlalu suka perubahan, walaupun yah memang dunia dan orang orang butuh perubahan yang kecil, besar, buruk ataupun baik. Tapi sebaik apapun perubahan itu, ada saatnya kita rindu keadaan sebelum si perubahan mengubah segalanya, susah untuk adaptasi sama orang-orang baru, mungkin bukan benar-benar orangnya yang baru melainkan pribadi yang baru, keadaan mereka yang baru. Disaat seperti itu, aku yang engga berubah, aku yang begini begini aja, cuma bisa apa? Ya mau engga mau menerima dia lagi. Karena, dalam keadaan yang kamu sadar bahwa semua berubah, orang-orang berubah, keadaan berubah, posisimu berubah, kamu cuma bisa dua... Ikut berubah atau Menerima perubahan itu.

Aku juga bukan orang yang suka ambil resiko (aku memang pengecut kok!) jadi, selama ini, aku hanya bisa menerima pelan-pelan dan mengikuti maunya si pribadi-pribadi baru ini. Entah kenapa menurutku, orang bisa berubah drastis, seperti ruh lain masuk ke dalam orang ini, hahahaha... serius deh! Kekuatan perubahan begitu besarnya, begitu banyaknya orang yang berubah, tapi aku masih disini. Jadi aku yang menurutku adalah aku, dan menjalani kehidupan yang aku banget.

Aku pernah baca beberapa artikel tentang Comfort Zone. Sesungguhnya engga terlalu mengerti sih, tapi... yang aku tangkep dari artikel-artikel itu, intinya adalah kalau kita harus keluar dari zona nyaman kita, seperti aku yang engga mau ambil resiko, aku harus keluar dari zona nyamanku ini/sifat jelekku ini, sekali-kali kan ambil resiko ngga pa-pa.

Aku udah beberapa kali coba berubah kok! Tapi ya itulah, aku mungkin memang dasarnya engga peka atau gimana aku engga ngerti, tapi aku engga ngerti apa yang harus mesti ku ubah dari diriku, apa yang mesti aku perbaiki? Selama ini teman-teman sepertinya tidak komen apa-apa tentang aku yang begini atau aku yang begitu, walaupun terkadang mereka suka menasihati tapi... still no comment. Lalu aku harus apa?

Entah kenapa 2012 yang lalu, waktu cepat sekali berjalan... Atau mungkin Ia tidak jalan tapi berlari. Aku yang masih kebingungan, aku yang masih beradaptasi, aku yang labil sekaligus aku yang fragile (because kalau I bilang 'RAPUH' kesannya I kok lemahski bgt gitu hihihi) tiba-tiba harus dihadapi dengan already-changed friends yang semakin tegar, dewasa dan berani. You know, kalau aku boleh lebay, aku merasa seperti butiran debu. Kenapa aku tumbuh lama sekali? Kenapa untuk menjadi dewasa itu susah sekali? Kenapa berubah rumit? dia hanya kata kerja, which means itu adalah kerjaan, dan seharusnya BERUBAH itu gampang kan? Kenapa mesti rumit begini?

Jadi beginilah, my early two thousand and thirteen spent with identity crisis. Who am I? What am I doing? Where is my destination? Which person I am? When will I change? How did I end up thinking about this mess?

Mess. My life was a mess in the early 2013. My friends got new friends, they get along well until now, they've found better friends and I'm here stuck with my friends who already made many connections with world while I'm here, hanging out with virtual friends talking about handsome guys who don't even know we're exist. Pathetic do I sound?

Ditambah stress ujian nasional, well couldn't you find anything better to torture me? But whoever-this-you-is you succeed because I'm way more than feeling like I'm tortured.

I don't blame my friends if they get more friends than I, if they hang out with different people than me, If they finally find a better person to talk to... I don't mind at all. I don't want to sound selfish, but that's what they supposed to do and what I couldn't do, and that really matters to me! Because it's me who I am talking about. Of course I care about me, I mind my own business, and to consider myself unable do something what people can easily do. I am an embarrassing and pathetic piece of meat.

Tapi aku masih ngga ngerti (jujur aja sampai sekarang) apa yang harus kuubah, aku sudah jadi diriku, aku memang cuek, aku memang ngga peka, aku memang hanya suka ngomong sama yang aku kenal, aku memang males untuk sapa hai sana sini dan bukan tipe orang yang suka graat greet sana sini di bbm (I did that a few times already though ><), terus kenapa? Apa yang salah?
Kalau aku terlalu cablak atau kalau aku memang suka asal ngomong, memang itu berarti sekali ya? Bukannya kalau pertemanan lebih baik jujur pada teman? Aku engga ngerti sebelah mana aku salahnya, aku cuma ngga mau hidupku kayak drama-drama which always end because of the foolishness of the main character and mostly it's because they lied to their friends/lovers.

Lalu aku salah apa? Aku kurang apa? Apa aku memang sebegitu ngeboseninnya sekarang dibandingkan mereka mereka yang udah punya pikiran dewasa? Aku kekanak-kanakan banget apa?

Sampai tadi pagi aku masih mikirin itu... sampai akhirnya tadi siang...

kesayangan @Widyasasa & @VirdaBerlianti

si cewek cewek ini dateng dan langsung grabak-grubuk di dalem kamarku, segala laptop, kamera, hapeku di buka-bukain :")

Mereka tuh memang deket dari kelas 7 jadi kalau mereka nyebelin akunya udah biasa ~~~\o/ tapi main sama mereka dibawanya ketawa melulu deh! Gimana engga ketawa kalau temenmu dateng-dateng buka laptop kamu terus nunjukkin video parodi eyang subur paling kocak yang pernah kamu tonton? Gimana engga ketawa kalau temenmu dateng-dateng langsung ambil kamera dan mau self-camera dan lupa kalau kameranya di timer dan hasil fotonya fail abis dan itu ngga jadi avatar twitter melainkan akhirnya jadi aib doang? Gimana engga ketawa kalau pas kamu nemuin sesuatu di twitter yang bikin kamu sedih dan langsung cerita ke mereka, dan mereka langsung bahas-bahas hal kocak yang bikin kamu lupa sama sesuatu di twitter itu? Gimana engga ketawa kalau biasanya dirumah kamu makan dengan normal sama keluargamu dan malah tiba-tiba kamu makan sama orang terkurus di dunia yang makan nasi dua bakul? Gimana engga ketawa kalau kamu pas engga punya uang buat beli sushi dan akhirnya malah ke minimarket buat beli seaweed kering yang seharusnya sih buat snack tapi malah dipaksa untuk dijadiin sushi?

Main sama mereka tadi siang, udah ngembaliin tawa selama berbulan-bulan yang sempet ke pause kalau ibarat game online. Pas banget, main setelah hari terakhir UN dan ketawa puas banget.

Sampai akhirnya, hal yang selama ini aku pertanyakan dan disimpan untuk dijawab sendiri, aku tanya ke mereka dan mereka sama sekali engga menjawab dengan aneh. Mereka engga yang kayak 'gue engga ah, lo aja kali' dan mereka santai aja setelah aku bilang kayak begitu. Aku sempet kaget, deg-degan nunggu mereka jawab, tapi... hah? mereka cuma gitu?

Butuh waktu yang cukup lama buat aku sadar kalau ternyata memang cuma aku yang belum berubah. Mungkin mereka sudah, tapi mereka ngga berubah pas sama aku, mereka ya jadi mereka yang aku kenal pas sama aku. Hal yang aku suka dari mereka, mereka itu pas buat aku. Pas aku ngobrolin teenage things which including love life, mereka hayuk aja gitu, mereka ikutin alur aku ngomong, dan aku juga terkadang engga sadar kalau aku bisa tiba-tiba join ke new topic yang udah engga menyangkut aku tapi menyangkut mereka dan pas aku ngobrolin childish things, lame jokes, mereka juga ikut... Aku jadi tiga ababil yang gagal lawak karena biasanya kita cuma melontarkan inside jokes yang cuma dimengerti kita bertiga hehehe ;;)

Mereka engga bikin aku merasa kekanak-kanakan dan mereka ada disaat aku ketawa dan butuh ketawa.

Akhirnya, aku sadar kalau perubahan yang sebenernya itu bukan yang asal-asal cuma karena kamu harus. Perubahan itu akan terjadi sendiri nanti, ketika hatimu merasa kamu harus, ketika kamu menemukan hal yang worthy untuk ngubah kamu untuk bikin kamu berubah. Berubah itu bukan cuma sekedar niat, tapi perlu hati juga. Karena kalau kamu mau berubah tapi hatimu tetap sama yang belum berubah, apalah arti perubahan? Perubahan juga walaupun ada yang buruk, tapi kita semua berharapnya yang terbaik, kan? Lagipula, jika memang kamu merasa kalau kamu HARUS berubah, kamu perlu mengitarkan pandanganmu untuk mencari orang, teman, sahabat, keluarga yang mau menerimamu sebelumnya kamu, setelahnya kamu dan apa adanya kamu.

side notes: Hey Virda dan Widya. I had so much fun today with you two, hope we can do it often since we've freed from test and we're about to part from each other (though I really hope to go to the same school as you guys) and I'm sorry if I've made so much mistakes to you since our first meeting, especially Virda, I don't want to be one of those people who 'feel that person is important once they lost them' so sorry if I ever make space with you. I love you two! <3 i="">

Hello, how's life everyone? ^^

Mine?

Change.

Hehehehe...

Sebenernya sih engga berubah-berubah banget. Bukan berubah yang kayak di novel novel atau di tivi tivi.

Just a sorta huge change.

Gatau deh harus mulai dari mana...

Semua orang akhir-akhir ini berubah, entah ya gue doang yang geer atau mereka pun merasakan hal yang sama seperti gue.

Let's call the first person, me.

Gue tadi di sekolah pas engga ada guru duduk duduk di depan kelas sama Kintan, Prita, Gina, Bepe dan Widya seperti biasa. Kita lagi kalem-kalemnya main Temple Run di iPad nya Kintan, tiba-tiba gue berdiri dan merengek kepada mereka tentang SMTOWN III INA yang akan diselenggarakan di stadion Gelora Bung Karno tanggal 22 September nanti.

Gue engga bakal bisa nonton, nyokap sudah tidak membolehkan gue nonton-nonton konser bahkan jauh dari sebelum gue ngomong bahwa akan ada konser SMTOWN di Indonesia. Yaudah akhirnya gue galau, dan pasrah sebetulnya.

Ya sadar juga sih, udah kelas 9 mau Ujian Nasional masa iya masih main-main begitu. Ngomong begini sih sebenernya dalem hati nangis guling guling mau ketemu EXO. ahahahaha...

Ya, kembali ke topik.

Pas gue ngomong panjang lebar tiba-tiba Kintan nyeletuk "Shoot Shoot Shoot, Hoot Hoot Hoot ya cun?" sambil ketawa-tawa.

Yang Kintan celetukin tadi itu salah satu line di lagu Girls' Generation - Hoot yang rilis 2 tahun yang lalu, tepatnya pas gue masih kelas 7.

"Udah kek Kin, masa lalu banget itu. Malu banget gue ih, malu... Dulu berani banget nari-nari di depan kelas kayak begitu." Raung gue kepada Kintan yang masih ketawa-tawa nginget jaman kelas 7 dulu waktu ditugasin bikin drama kelompok, kelompok gue bikin drama tentang musisi dan ceritanya Gue, Kintan dan Prita jadi member girl group yang jahat dan ada scene pas kita bertiga nari-nari pake lagu Hoot yang tadi.

IUWH.

Setelah banyak ketawa-tawa, sesuatu terpikirkan oleh gue dan gue bilang:

"Gila ya, kita udah banyak berubah banget loh dari pas kelas 7. Gue udah ga labil labil banget sekarang."

"Iya yah, dulu kita kayaknya labil banget deh. Nyindir-nyindir, musuh-musuhan, cinta-cintaan."

"Mungkin gue saking terlalu labilnya waktu kelas 7, jadi gue udah capek jadi anak labil." Gue bergurau dan teman-teman gue ikut ketawa.

Dari situlah gue tersadar bahwa: Alhamdulillah, Iya gue sudah cukup banyak berubah.

Gue sudah tidak terlalu memikirkan love thingy, engga suka musuh-musuhan ~~lebih suka mendem maksudnya~~, lebih cuek terhadap sekitar.

Walaupun iya, gue masih suka joget-joget ga jelas di depan kelas. Tapi sekarang, gue cuma melakukan itu JIKALAU sepi atau sudah tidak ada orang lagi di sekitar tempat gue menari itu.

Dan, gue juga sedang mencoba berubah menjadi anak yang lebih rajin, ~~tidak banyak omong~~ dan perhatian #EAAAAAKKKKSSSSS

Abis banyak banget sih yang bilang gue males, cerewet dan cuek :( hiks

Tapi justru mereka motivatorku, ya! ^^

Terutama menjadi lebih rajin!

Beberapa bulan lagi mau UN nih, udah kelas 9 :(
gue mencoba buat menjadi lebih rajin mengulang pelajaran dan ngerjain tugas-tugas.

Kalau dari sananya udah males, emang susah banget buat jadi rajin! T_T

apalagi gue, yang dari kelas 7 sampe kelas 8 kalo ulangan ngga pernah belajar dan makanya selalu dapet nilai jelek D:

makanya gue mau berubah dan HARUS berubah demi masa depan yang indah nan cerah! ^^

Hahahahaha...

"Gapapa deh ga dapet tiket konser, yang penting kita bisa dapet tiket ke SMA yang bagus."

Tweet senior gue 2 tahun yang lalu.

Nah, yuk kita berubah!

Life's change, People's change, Feeling's also change!

Ayo kita rubah semuanya menjadi lebih baik ^^9

Love,

Annisa Fathia Rachmah<3 font="font">

Nama gue Annisa Fathia Rachmah, pemilik nama paling indah... hihihi
pasti bakal pada bilang kalo gue narsis?

yeah, i have that atittude... praising my own self.

Prolognya engga nyambung sih sama yang bakal gue ceritain ini... hmmm... oke deh dimulai ;;)

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Gue punya 3 kakak... Yang pertama udah punya penghasilan sendiri, yang kedua baru mau selesai kuliahnya dan berencana jadi guru, yang ketiga baru mau lulus SMA dan rencana kuliah di Yogyakarta. Gue sendiri masih stuck di Tangerang sama suasana yang masih sama, well i mean middle school, dan masih juga males padahal setahun lagi gue bakal jadi anak kelas 3 SMP.

Kakak gue yang ketiga yang age gap nya cuma 4 tahun di atas gue udah mulai kuliah, udah mulai mencari keahliannya... i mean, untuk memilih atau melamar kerja nanti pasti kita harus tau kan ketertarikan dan keahlian kita dalam bidang apa?

waktu itu lagi di mobil, kakak gue lagi berbincang tentang 'kuliah-kuliahan' sama bapak. Seperti biasa, bapak gue sangat antusias (ya emang harus sih sebenernya) ketika anaknya akan menginjak ke new grade of their life.

Gue yang paginya baru aja ngasih kertas ulangan Fisika-Kimia yang dibawah KKM itu agak merasa bersalah juga, karena gue inget gimana antusiasnya bapak gue ketika gue lagi tes RSBI ke SMPN 1 Tangerang.

Tapi, pada akhirnya gue asik leha-leha lagi... main twitter lagi...

sampe tiba-tiba...

"Nisa, kamu mau SMA dimana nanti? Setahun lagi loh... kamu mah... IPA gasuka, IPS juga gasuka... kamu nanti SMA mau masuk apa? Kamu mau kuliah dimana?"

Bft... gue agak jengkel sebetulnya ditanyain begitu, karena gue mikirnya 'masih jauh banget kaliii~ setahun kan lama, loh!' tapi... iya juga kalo gue ga belajar dari sekarang, kapan lagi belajarnya?

Padahal dulu gue seneng banget kalo di ajak ngobrol tentang cita-cita... sekarang mau masuk SMA aja bingung bets... T_T

Dulu... Dulu banget, waktu masih TK... gue sangat gencar untuk jadi guru Kesenian karena menurut gue lucu aja gitu... bisa main-main cat dan ngurusin anak-anak kecil yang lucu-lucu...

akhirnya gue sadar pas kelas 4 SD, bahwa:

1) Gambar gue jelek

2) Gue ga suka dan gabisa ngurus anak kecil TwT

Akhirnya, gue bercita-cita jadi penulis... periode gue sebagai anak kelas 4 SD sampai awal kelas 1 SMP, microsoft word penuh sama judul-judul aneh 'Novel To Be' gue... gaada satu pun yang selesai sampai akhirnya entah pada kemana itu cerita :')

Jujur sampe sekarang, gue sangat ingin menggeluti bidang cerita...

gue dari dulu suka banget baca cerita semenjak gue bisa baca...

Pertama baca hai!Miiko nya Ono Eriko, lalu gue belajar baca novel dan ya gitu deh... gue sampe sekarang suka banget masuk ke dalam cerita-cerita fiksi buatan tangan-tangan ajaib manusia-manusia kreatif di luar sana :)

Gue suka banget fiksi, gue suka menghayal sih... Tapi, sejak gue mengalami pubertas, gue lebih sering baca novel-novel TeenLit dibanding fiksi... hhh...

Penulis favorit gue akhir-akhir ini adalah Ilana Tan karena gaya bahasa dan betapa unyunya dia menggambarkan kisah cinta di bukunya itu :')

Tapi sangat sayang sekali, waktu gue yang sebetulnya sangat banyak di habiskan hanya untuk main twitter T___T

i'm not blaming twitter, i blame myself.

Sampe sekarang gue masih suka iseng bikin cerpen buat dikirim-kirim ke majalah, tapi sayangnya... Gapernah di muat :')

Bikin Fanfictions tentang Super Junior terus di post di website fanfiction gue...

Tapi sayangnya... gue tidak terlalu pede untuk memberikan cerita-cerita gue kepada masyarakat luas... alias gue pemalu -_-

Gue emang narsis, over pede, tapi ya mau gimana... Gue tetep malu buat story-telling, malah engga pernah kepilih buat ngewakilin sekolah untuk lomba story-telling... hihihi

Gue sih berharap aja gue bisa makin mendalami bidang ini :)

agak anti-klimaks ya posting gue kali ini? ._.

Okelah, sip... BYE! :)

HELLO EVERYONEEEE!
I'm back with the newest story of mine... the most exciting story that ever happen!

So, let me start with dramatic cough...
*cough cough*

20th March 2012,
me and my sister met my sister's friends who just got back from Thailand, they watched Super Show 4 in Thailand. that time i was just listening to their experience, which made me really envy, i never thought that i could feel the atmosphere at the Super Show.
I really excited even i just listening from their story.
When we got home, i checked my timeline... and guess what i found?

i can't stop blabbering about Super Junior and Super Show back then :')

and yeah, finally at 7th April, we got the voucher-ticket :') i'm so HAPPY, and yeah i could describe my feeling that time...

before the concert, we practicing fanchant (The lyrics for fans to fill the instrumental part at the idol's songs, usually happens in KPOP and JPOP), and made a banner.

(This is my sister who was making a banner for Ryeowook)

(This is my banner for Eunhyuk, and the hangul on it read as 'Hyeok')

we were SOOO EXCITED.... until, 29th April 2012, the 3rd Day of #SuperShow4INA

(There were a bit changed of plan... it's not 28th-29th, it's 27th-29th ><)

First, we exchanged the voucher-ticket to the real-ticket. the real-ticket is a unbreakable-paper-bracelet;

(Actually, i wished for something more than paper-bracelet T_T)

I wore my brand new high heels :') what a sweet sacrifice... (?)

i felt a bit higher that time, and well... my shoes set my feet in pain... T_T

it's really hurt, so before the concert started, i went to get a plaster from the staffs...

after i got my plaster, the staff pushed me out of the room, i was so confuse, they said:

"The star is coming, you have to wait in the box..." then, i realized if i was a bit eager that time, maybe... maybe... i could see Super Junior.

it's only maybe.

FINALLY, THE SHOW IS STARTED!!!!

the opening VCR made my heart beat faster than usual,

then...

"We give you 9 Superman"

it drove me crazy, so i was yelling like the others do...

and started to shout "It is really Super Junior? am i just looking at youtube? no no, youtube display isn't this real and big..."

then it started to "BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM BAM~" the music of Superman's song from Super Junior, they they came out :') ;

(The best picture i could take)

when they came out, the 3 words kept lingering in my mind:

HANDSOME FOR REAL...

LITERALLY FOR REAL

I can't explain what i feel :')

the show was going fine...

well, uhm, okay, MORE THAN FINE!

the best part at the concert was;

-The first song, Superman. i didn't know it is just me or Eunhyuk wanna laugh but he can't because Superman is such a serious performance.

- Rokkugo, when "SAY OOOH!!! SAY ROKKUGO!!! SORI CHILEEEEOOOOOO (shout) !!!!"

- Eunhyuk solo with What's My Name, he sang "What's my name?!" and ELF shouted "LEE HYUKJAE!" and he greeted Indonesian ELFs with his messy-talk-in-Indonesian.

- Oppa, Oppa... I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH! and, "I say Donghae, you say Oppa... I say Myeol-chi you say Oppa... I say Eunhae you say Oppa..."

- Don't Don, when Super Junior performed that song... i just, don't know... i have no idea... is it just me or Sungmin is REALLY LOOKING AND SMILING AT ME... :') that time i was in front of the crowd, and... even though that smile isn't for me, i will be fascinate enough seeing his smile, for real... :')

- Sungmin Solo, with if-you-see-what-i-saw part ;)

-Our Love, such a peaceful performance, Super Junior sang and ELF fanchant-ed, and Our Love project, when we put the banner with 'PRECIOUS LOVE SUPER JUNIOR' written on it up when they sang.

- The special stage, when all of them got wet by the water from the stage~ <3

- Shindong Solo, dancing to 'Cinta Jangan Kau Pergi' song by Vidi Aldiano ><

In short,

#SuperShow4INA was AWESOME!

i adore all of their performance,

not just what i typed above.

i'm happy, until today... i'm still glad being an ELF and attended #SuperShow4INA

never happier! :') <3

and i sticked the banner from #SuperShow4INA on my room's wall :)

cute isn't it? kekeke~ ^^

and yeah, i was almost get Ryeowook's wet towel :'( but, i wasn't... and my precious lightstick was broken :'(

even so,

i'm happy with #SuperShow4INA,

i hope i can meet Super Junior again soon in Indonesia ^^

we'll wait for #SuperShow5INA and #SMTownConcertINA

<3 MUCH LOVE FOR SUPER JUNIOR!!!

hello everyone,
i'm again about to tell you about my day...
i just, happy that i have post my newest post on blogger yesterday,
even though i know, people wouldn't care.. hehehe

today, i would reveal a secret...
(wow, sounds dramatic isn't it?
it's not a secret but... well, yeah... kind of telling you what i think about something in the past years or months or days...

i don't feel like doing anything, because... i don't know, it seems like everything i do always turn out wrong..
it ever happen once in my life before today,
it was when i was in 7th Grade, and it's really uncomfortable because i was in lack of self-esteem.

It is now happen again to me, today.
i'm so bored, i'm so out of my mind...
i don't check my personal twitter, i even haven't check my own phone,
all day i spent with watching korean drama, listening to music, reading books, watching MVs.
but i just didn't keep in touch with people around me.

I just don't know why, i keep this feeling for about 2 months...
i don't have any problem... maybe that's why i feel so useless and unwanted...

(GEEZ, i need a help for my mellow-dramatic feels in this blog)

p.s: i didn't reply your mention or message doesn't mean i hate you, i just need my quality time in this holiday because the feeling i feel.

Sincerely,
Annisa Fathia Rachmah

Annisa FR

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